it seems like my facebook posts that garner the longest (and, sometimes, most heated) comments are those dealing with my pregnancy. being a relative latecomer to the parenting game, i have quite a few lady friends who’ve already taken the plunge into motherhood; each of them is very intelligent (i tend to avoid stupid people, after all), and each has had a different experience – and, thusly, came out with different opinions and insights about the matter. from how to deal with the not-so-pleasant (or anxiety-inducing) moments of pregnancy to whether or not to use drugs in order to make the birth experience a little easier, i’ve gotten loads of advice from these wonderful women…and i love them for it. yes, i have books and websites at my disposal to get all this information, but the testimonies of real women that i know and trust are far more important to me than any printed word. this is going to be the most terrifying and most incredible experience of my life, but knowing that i’ll be in good company when it’s all over makes it worthwhile (not to mention the fact that we’ll have a beautiful new son…that’s really the best part). ^_^ (more…)
what a difference a year makes 8 March, 2010
as so many others have done on the interwebs, dear blog, i have forsaken you for the shiny of the facebooks. yeah, i’ve been keeping a sporadic handwritten, old-school journal (and if it makes you feel any better, the last entry i’d made in that book was back when ben and i were dating…). but people have been bugging me about blogging about the pregnancy, so…
oh, did i forget to mention that? well, i guess we have been out of touch, haven’t we? yeah, i’m at about 6 months now. maxwell benjamin’s estimated date of arrival is june 3rd, though i’m not putting any money on that. he’ll show up when he’s ready, and if he’s anything like his parents, he’ll be fashionably late. ben is absolutely ecstatic…in the nearly 12 years we’ve been together, i’ve never seen him this happy. and here i’d thought i couldn’t love him more than i did… 
and as for me? man, i can’t even begin to name a single emotion that describes how i’m feeling right now. of course, i’m thrilled about being a mom. i can’t wait to finally get to hold max, to look at him, to just have him here on the outside and get to know him. and i’m nervous…i mean, this is HUGE. my life, our lives, will never be the same. this precious little person will be relying on us for everything. that’s a slightly intimidating prospect, no? and i won’t even get into the financial concerns, or the “oh god, we’ve only got 3 more months to prepare for this life-changing, earth-shattering event!” panic that sometimes grips me. i like to think that my emotions are along the same that i’d be feeling on the ride up the lift to go bungee jumping off something really huge, like the arch in st. louis, except i get a baby at the end.
there are some things about which i’ve definitely made up my mind. i definitely want to have natural child birth…no offense to my friends who’ve had c-sections, but i’m just not down. i definitely want to have ben there with me every single second through the labor and delivery. i thought i’d made up my mind that i wanted an epidural, but the more i look into it, the more i’m starting to question that decision…
