as so many others have done on the interwebs, dear blog, i have forsaken you for the shiny of the facebooks. yeah, i’ve been keeping a sporadic handwritten, old-school journal (and if it makes you feel any better, the last entry i’d made in that book was back when ben and i were dating…). but people have been bugging me about blogging about the pregnancy, so…
oh, did i forget to mention that? well, i guess we have been out of touch, haven’t we? yeah, i’m at about 6 months now. maxwell benjamin’s estimated date of arrival is june 3rd, though i’m not putting any money on that. he’ll show up when he’s ready, and if he’s anything like his parents, he’ll be fashionably late. ben is absolutely ecstatic…in the nearly 12 years we’ve been together, i’ve never seen him this happy. and here i’d thought i couldn’t love him more than i did… 
and as for me? man, i can’t even begin to name a single emotion that describes how i’m feeling right now. of course, i’m thrilled about being a mom. i can’t wait to finally get to hold max, to look at him, to just have him here on the outside and get to know him. and i’m nervous…i mean, this is HUGE. my life, our lives, will never be the same. this precious little person will be relying on us for everything. that’s a slightly intimidating prospect, no? and i won’t even get into the financial concerns, or the “oh god, we’ve only got 3 more months to prepare for this life-changing, earth-shattering event!” panic that sometimes grips me. i like to think that my emotions are along the same that i’d be feeling on the ride up the lift to go bungee jumping off something really huge, like the arch in st. louis, except i get a baby at the end.
there are some things about which i’ve definitely made up my mind. i definitely want to have natural child birth…no offense to my friends who’ve had c-sections, but i’m just not down. i definitely want to have ben there with me every single second through the labor and delivery. i thought i’d made up my mind that i wanted an epidural, but the more i look into it, the more i’m starting to question that decision…
Well hello there! I was just wondering a few days ago whether Max would draw you back this way. I don’t have strong feelings one way or the other about personal birth plans, but I would advise you not to get too strongly attached to whatever plan you choose. I was certain about how everything would go with Baby No. 1, and the only thing that happened as I’d planned was that I had a baby at the end of it. (Which, really, is the important part.) For Baby No. 2, I took more of a Whatever, Man approach, and it was a much less stressful event for me all around.
All that said, I’m am so, so thrilled for you too, and I know you’re going to be rockstar parents.
well, we’ll see how well i do with my return to blogging. just because i have stuff to write about doesn’t mean i’ll stick with the writing of it…
and thanks! coming from you, those are definite words of high praise.